Light in the Dark

Another day, and heartbreak. Well the hardest christmas of my life is over. It has been the hardest Christmas of my life. This christmas was so hard due to the Recent events in my life. Thouse that read read this are going to to know what i'm talking about.

Christmas Eve was excatley 8 months since this major life occurance has happened. I don't know what say, or do. My heart is longing for a simplertime, and a faded memory of many things. I know that my life is not a hard thing but when your heart learns to love things make sure it is treated with the upmost care and importance.

I miss the happy memory's that we shared in so many years together. I miss her smile, her laugh and personality. She was my verything and more.

I now live my life trying to find meaning and stability, and happiness by my self. I am learning to express myself both physically, and mentally. I am trying to better myself and find the reasons that i am doing this. All i have to say is that i have loved more than i ever have and learned so many lessons in this short time of my trials. Do not feel sorry or pity for me, nay instead celebrate the joy's that i have ocured. My life is only begining to form to the will of God. He is the only person that is going to get me throgh this day. It is by his glory and grace that i praise him for the storm i'm going through.