Faith in God

As i sit here and ponder the way way things have turned out. I often wonder what "GOD" has in store for me. Why is it that I feel he is teaching me so much? What does he have in store for me, and why?
Now, I look at my life I don't regret 99.9% of the things i have done. I have lived a very fulfilling life. I have lived a lifetime in the time i have been here, i have met many people, and many friends. Why i regret the small things in life? I have the good lord in my life and that is VERY Important to me, but what is love? Love, is a tool that cannot be explained to another person. We can describe what love is, yet we cannot explain the human emotion. Why does an emotion that cannot be described, hurt so much when we are unloved by those that we chose to give are hearts to.
Many time I have loved. Many times, I have been loved yet in each instance the feeling was different. I have felt accepted, and cherished, wanted and needed. It was not til the last the last time I was was loved, that I begin to understand the hardest emotion to understand. When You are loved you feel all the above and move. It is a sense of peace, and tranquility. A feeling that i want back. I still love her to this day.I don't know what life will bring me, or what what God has in store for me, But I will wait as long as it takes for God, to fulfil the promise of me being happy. What will happen to my heart? Will I love the way I once did? Will it be the same person? God only knows, and I must have faith in him throughout this trial. He shall see me through but i must wait til he is ready and not rush him. I will praise him through this storm, and i will lift my hands. No matter where i am. I only he knows what he is doing, and i am not about to take the Wheel, from him. How much do u trust the lord??? Who is driving your life car??