Deliberation Time

As i sat and meditated my life today i made a empiricism. What was that you ask? Here I sit in 12,419 day of my life, I figured out what I noticed about my life. My Life has always been measured by what i have done in my life. I have discovered that my life is not about what I accomplish but what I have already in my life. Yes, I have taken the road NOT traveled. lol =P Some people take a road less travel, I on the other hand take the road not traveled. Why you may ask?

I believe that you can learn more if you take the hardest path. the harder the path the better the lesson is learned. Picture this for me: You walk in to a Super market, that you have never been to before. As you grab your shopping cart, you are arriving at a conclusion. That conclusion whether consciously, or subconsciously is where you start. What aisle you go down is like life. You go down aisle 12, and in the produce area was a check made to cash for $10,000 You made the wrong choice, or did you? At the beginning of aisle 11 there is somewhere there that you meet that will change your life more that that blank check. I live my life like that. I Pray to meet as many people that god wills me to. Unknowingly improving my life.

For example, my dear friend Shaina. When i first saw her, i felt a connection. I was unaware the impact that this "Girl" would have on my life. She brought back me back to the beginning. God had brought this friend to me in my time of need. She was a there when i needed to discuss things in my life, as i was for her. She is the 'MOST AMAZING' person that i know. (I know allot of people too.)

Thank you for letting me ramble but back to my discovery!!

I figured that the people in my life are the most important things in my life. Granted i have had allot of heartaches, and pain and misery in my life. I sit here with only a suitcase full of clothes, and an empty room. But i am not in despair. No, instead i celebrate the things that i do have, the joys, and wonder God has brought to my life. I Thank god i Have a place to stay, people that lovingly encourage me, pray for me, and love me. I need nothing else than the Joy, and Mercy of Yahweh.

God took everything from me that was important to slam me in the mud. Now, i and not trying to paint a bad picture of him, or am i bashing him. Rather I am thanking him. Why? Because, I know in my heart that I really must go to the bottom of of the hole before i can even think of starting to climb out. I am "Broken", and I know this. I just wanted to tell you all, Thank You! Thanking for letting me ramble, and vent. Thank you for putting up with drama, and more importantly thank you for being You!! You are all treasured in you own way and yo know how i feel about each one of you..